Great prayer

O Eternal One,
it would be easier for me to pray,
if I were clear
and of a single mind and pure heart,
if I could be done hiding from myself
and from you, even in my prayers.
But I am who I am,
mixture of motives and excuses,
blur of memories
quiver of hopes,
knot of fear,
tangle of confusion,
and restless with love
for love...
Come, find me, Lord.
Be with me exactly as I am.
Help me find me, Lord.
Help me accept what I am
so I can begin to be yours.


Ted Loder, Guerrillas of Grace