Wednesday, November 20, 2013
What is it about being sick? Suddenly I'm forced to face my limits. To get in bed, shut it all down, and settle in for a long winter's nap. But it's doesn't feel all cozy and cute like that at all! I get bored, feel off, see life through the skewed lens of ailment.
"You are alone."
"You could be doing x, y, and z with this time."
"You're not really sick just lazy."
Wonky stuff emerges in our hearts when our circumstances are such. All we see are the trees in the forrest, the dim light, the dense fog and small glimpses of light. That's when the disappointment and boredom really sets in. My heart lifts thinking, "Yippee, the light! I'm feeling better!" Then the fog covers it again and I begin to question if things will ever really feel different again?
I. Will. Be. Sick. Forever.
Ha! Such impatience. Aren't we such impatient creatures?
And here's the thing....God uses it a l l to renew, breathe l i f e, and restore a kingdom mindset within us!
No, I don't like being sick. No, I don't think sickness was originally part of the design.
But, yes, I have a God who meets me in it. Yes, I have a God who reminds me in my circumstance, "It's okay to 'waste some time' with me." A God who brings comfort through chicken noodle soup and orange juice for days. A Giver who provides nutrients for body and soul and a daily supply of g r a c e to see me though.
For autumn is beautiful outside, but there is beauty yet still in the woods of our heart, yes, even there!