I kinda knew it might. It's been a full couple weeks. Great things just many things. And I did not sabbath rest. So when I found out my landlords needed to do an inspection with an insurance agent on my only morning free this past week, I was not thrilled.
But I guess since I had a spiritual direction client at 11a.m. it was not the end of the world. Then she cancelled. After that, I wanted nothing more than to spend a lingering morning in my bed. (And now, after Friday's post you know how much I love those. The word covet comes to mind.)
Which leads to my sacred moment. When I become attached to any one outcome and one way of making my life work, most the time it's a soul caution. As in, life is not that predictable nor meant to be so its time to switch my kingdom mindset.
When I covet or demand an outcome, this is a little flashing radar button that my soul is veering towards the kingdom of me and control and teetering away from the Kingdom of His Son--freedom from circumstance and freedom to be interdependent.
So here was the gift. Do-over Monday!
Yup. Let's pause and start this over again. (This happened around 10:30 after said landlords arrived, I left, and then got text that they were gone sooner than expected).
First confession of my grumperton attitude.
Which led to an acknowledgment of a lot of other feelings.
Then the cry, "Help me do this differently."
Guess where He took me?
Back to the Bible?
A devotional classic?
Back to Mitford.
Yep, I read a couple sections. Something about it took me into the ordinary and everyday of the Episcopal Priest. It took me out of pious, get to work on me Susie.
I need that.
Then I just gradually started thanking Him. For my landlords, for my home, for this special little room, for this half day...
Then I started a little slideshow of this weekend and my heart warmed looking at the little doodles who bring such fun and color to my days.
So how's your Monday? Remember a do-over or perhaps better said a do-again is always available with Jesus.